From Friday....
After the last seven days of UGH, I was NERVOUS heading into the weekend this morning. God gave me this, "
And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with.... you forever--the spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14: 16-18.
I read those words, "But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you," like it was a totally new concept for me. What? Why is it so hard for His truth to reach us? Am I that stubborn? Is it this hard for everyone? I'm fully aware that I am merely a sinner saved by grace, but this is like
so crucial....to always be mindful that the Holy Spirit resides in me. I am not alone. I am NOT doing this alone. Why did I think I was alone? Why was I trying to do all this alone?
So after being reminded that I have a very real and present helper, we (magically) had a much better day. Got the boys off to school. Sidebar....I'm still in disbelief at how easy it is to get them to and from school everyday. This is the first time in six years, since Clayton started preschool, that I haven't had to wake someone, keep someone up, drive all over kingdom come, often three times a day, to get someone(s) to and from school. It is SO nice. Amazing really.
We did (what seems to be) Chick Fil A Friday. I let them (the boys) pick where they want to get dinner from on Friday nights. Two for two....Chick Fil A! I'm not complaining! Seven years without it is a long time! :) They played at the play place (I confess, I hate all fast food play areas), then we drove out to the base just to make sure we could find it (and I didn't feel like going back home yet), and then I accidentally took a wrong turn and we just happened to end up next to a Sonic, so maybe root beer floats were consumed. :)
Clay seemed surprised that we had fun when we got home. He has such a hard time away from Ronnie. I think sometimes he thinks/feels that there's no way we can have fun without him. Maybe he even thinks he's not supposed to?? We've had a lot of good conversations about his feelings, his prayers....lots of spiritual development stuff here....we're working through it all. Truly blessed to guide him through all this, but I confess, it's exhausting at times.
And today, Sunday, we were able to watch our church service online LIVE from our church in Vegas. They just started streaming yesterday and it so blessed me to "be there" this morning. We tried a church last weekend that was a great fit for the kids, not me, and haven't decided where to turn next. I know we need to find a church home here, but it really blessed me and met me where I'm at to be able to worship "at home" today. I love that church. Always feels like being at home, even if it's from 2500 miles away. And Pastor Kevin just happened to be teaching on perseverance and cultivating joy. Clayton and I were listening real close.