God,
You are SO close! I'm in awe. I can't believe how many times you've spoken to me SO CLEARLY recently. I feel like in a lot of ways, I'm walking through a desert time right now. Life has been tough and my safety net removed since our move. You've even let me be physically alone much of the past four months (well, physically alone from adult companionship). (Isn't it funny how you can feel lonely even when you're never alone?!)
I don't think most people get where I'm at right now. Where I feel like you've put me. That's ok. I so clearly sense YOU in my desert and I don't feel like you've left me here to wander. And I so clearly, sense a PURPOSE for this time too. A great and mighty purpose. That burden that I've been carrying around....it's becoming more clearly defined and I believe, with all my heart, that my "desert" is a time of preparation and strengthening for the "next assignment" (and I don't mean, military assignment).
Here's where You got me today. "Let Me bless you with My grace and Peace. Open your heart and mind to receive all that I have for you. Do not be ashamed of your emptiness. Instead, view it as the optimal condition for being filled with My Peace.....Little by little, I will transform your weaknesses into strengths." (From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young)
You always meet me in this book. Almost audibly. Man....I'm in awe. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
My prayer is that I continue to stay close to you. I know we need fellowship, but sometimes, I think you take the fellowship of others away, so we can see straight to You. Cling to You. I'm clinging and You're receiving me and when everything else is stripped away, that's all that truly matters.
Love you so.
